Being Human

Once again I am reminded that I am first and foremost human. The thing that comes with that is to acknowledge what being human means. Not just being human in the sense of what the world says that is, but what I find inside. I find that at this moment (and I fully mean this moment) that I have emotions and guess what blog readers? Pretending that I'm better than them, stuffing them deep inside solves nothing. Letting them come and own what is truly going on. That is a part of being human. Being a woman with feelings but not making anyone else take ownership of them. Seeing that happiness is only one feeling and there is a huge spectrum of emotions just like the color spectrum.

Now I find that the divine is always giving me little nuggets of love and messages in anyway I am willing to receive the message. Today it was three distinct ways.

1) Music:

"Rescue is Coming" by The David Crowder Band

And there's nothing wrong with you  

And nothing left to do  

But believe something bigger  

And there's nothing wrong with love  

I know it's just enough to believe
Don't give up now 

A break in the clouds  

We will be found  

Rescue is coming now

To dance and be excited about what the universe has given me today. To embrace the cool fall breeze on my skin in my car. To throw my hands up in the air, like i just don't care, and dance as if no one is looking. And honesty who cares if they do?

2) Finding out that my mother in law is moving into town within the month. Which brought the anxiety of what if she does not like me. The fear that I actually have not met this woman in person. She will be staying with us (oh god the house) etc. And once again reminded that there is nothing I can do about it and she'll have granddaughter on her mind anyways.

3) The beauty in humility and a white chip (this one is a continuation but I know the universe is already rockin my world with that one). And I mean the absolute beauty. Bare naked, balls to the walls pure beauty of utter humility. And reminded that there is always beauty in the darkest of times, whether we accept life on life's terms or not.

Spirit Guides

Have you ever woke up from what feels like a dream and say to yourself: "That's it. Time to change." Well tonight was one of mine and here I am to start and see what will happens. I have decided to start this blog, whether or not anyone reads it is not the point. The point of it is to post about what is real in a world that seems to care less.

Throughout my day I always ask my guides to show me the path that the universe wants me to move towards today. Let me tell you that today I did not like the direction but love that I am being heard. I am 31 weeks 3 days pregnant today and was shown the pain that comes with being in the 3rd trimester of pregnancy. I am unable to get and stay asleep and sharp pain going throughout my body. However I need to remind myself that staying in a place of negativity will do no good. That my affirmation for this is "I embrace this pain. I acknowledge this. I can live through this." To remind myself that my body can and will take care of what is needed for a healthy pregnancy. So here is my prayer: guides please continue to show me this truth throughout these next couple of months.

I figure that this is a great start. Not all of my posts will be centered around my spirituality; but on art, education, politics, love, friendship, divine, and life in general.