Retreat Within Before The Fire: Chapter of My Forest

Hello Beautiful Essences,

This is more of a chat than my traditional blog posts. It's a raw post. One of my most raw posts. There is no editing. No grammar check. No prompts. Just me having to get what is inside out through this keyboard.

These past few weeks I have done some mega essence searching inside. So this blog will be a song blog. The song is "Chapter of The Forest" by Trevor Hall.

I suggest that you play this song while you read so you can get the energy that I am in at this moment. The link does not work on mobile devices, sorry essences :(

Chapter of My Forest.....

"I greet my Lord by the river side, It hits me almost every time"

I don't know about you but I have fallen in love with Spirit again. It took me going back to one of my sacred places to remind myself of how much I love Spirit and how much it means to me. This past week I was at the same spot where I found out that one of my ancestors moved to the Spirit Realm. Hara hara Narmada.

"Beauty runs so deep, that it's hard to sleep at night. This is the chapter of the forest"

Being connected to this spot reminded me how massive and big Spirit is. How the Universe is massive and how connected I can be to that source if I choose to be. I sat on that porch at that spot in awe of the beauty of how one of the hardest deaths in my life was a turning point for me. Spirit heard my prayers and intentions loud and clear. They allowed him to pass quickly and not suffer too much in the end. Thanks Tribe. Hara hara Naramada.

"Every line, and every chorus. From my heart it comes a pouring."

Beautiful Essence. For me when Spirit enters my heart fully, without boundaries, I can not help but cry. They are so powerful and beautiful. My human body can not handle the beauty that enters my body. It is an experience where I think that my heart will rip out of my chest, in a good way. The flood gates open and the rain starts to come down my cheeks. Hara hara Naramada.

"Into every single melody. Flame without the smoke"

I am a Lightworker and as I grow older, the more I fight it. No more. Now is the time to put this into overdrive. Not only have I come out of the closet with my Spirituality. It's time to embrace this life in more aspects of my life. Be the flame without saying a word, just show it! Hara hara Naramada.

"Harness all the poetry. I swear I'll never choke."

My voice tends to be smashed and I lash out in anger. No more. It's time to embrace my throat charka and really work on how I communicate with the world. My daughter is able to convey what is going on with little to no words. The least I can do it harness my voice and actions to reflect what Spirit truly wants for me in this world. Hara hara Naramada.

"Because I only of Naramada. Hara hara everyday"

Because I am here by the stars being in line. Do you fully understand how so many things had to happen for you to be alive? Let alone living today to write this? You are YOUnique and truly a gift to this world. Hara hara Naramada

"Make my love down at her waters. Calling on the mountain starter."

"No more books, no more empty words

No more running away from her

I now learn from the wind and rain

From the song of the lion's mane

And as it touches the sun and moon

I sit back and behold that tomb

Of glory upon her name 

We say hara hara Naramada"

"Well the one simple perspires. With a face that burns like fire. That's where I lay my body down"

I am reminded of that connection similar to Spirit when I was in high school. That balls to the walls, no boundaries, full release from all of this world. Just falling to my knees. Head to ground. Chanting to Spirit for the next move. Please show me my path. Hara hara Naramada. 

"Yeah, and in my dream I heard the lesson. Of the vault that holds the heavens in. Sow now I gaze upon the crowd, yeah."

Here you go Beautiful Essence. I heard your prayer. Now are you ready to follow it? Oh your in fear? Tell your Spiritual Tribe on Gaia and they will help you push through that fear. What is the worst that can happen Lindsay? You won't die. So why fear? Hara hara Naramada.

"You see my woman she is stainless. Stood her at the base. Touch the face, all the Gods come out the mountain. Sweet embrace."

Another wave of the love from Spirit spreading from my chest into the rest of my body. The flood gates are beyond open and now my head and heart are still. There are no words, no feelings, no images that can express this peace that is swept into my body. I am reminded that I am love, provided for, and never fail in my Spirit's eyes. Each "failure" I experience, Spirit will use that experience to better show how massive and powerful they are. Hara hara Naramada.

"You see her song it can't be heard. Unless you let go of the world. So I laid it all down. And I behold what I heard."

Less is more. More is less. That statement now has new meaning. It's time to release the past life that I lived this lifetime. Why carry around shit from years ago that doesn't even matter today? Why panic about every little thing, when all I have is just today? I can only chance my actions in this moment. Can not change the past. And choose the path for the future. So what is your choice Essence? Hara hara Naramada.

"No more books, no more empty words

No more running away from her

I now learn from the wind and rain

From the song of the lion's mane

And as it touches the sun and moon

I sit back and behold that tomb

Of glory upon her name 

We say hara hara Naramada"

Of the glory of their name, it's name, his name, her name, on whosoever name. Hara hara hara! Now is the time to stand up with PURPOSE. Now is the time to RELEASE all the fear. Now is the time for CHANGE. Now is the time! Now is the Time. Now is The Time. Now Is The Time.  Hara hara hara Naramada. 

"Hara hara Naramada"

-Hara hara Naramada Beautiful Essence

What is your choice? Share with your friends. Light that fire that we are more then what the world says we are. You are important and have a purpose in this world that only you can do. Are you ready?

First Deck Ever

Hello Beautiful Essence!

I wanted to write a quick post. I've been M.I.A for the past two weeks and needed to write something. (Don't worry I have a few posts coming up that will explain some of the madness; my grandfather passed on and I have gotten the tri-fecta Mono, Flu, and Strep)

Anyways, that's besides the point of this post. Just wanted to give a quick update.... here's the main point:

Here is when I got my first deck ever!

My Punk Face Look with My New Deck in 2008

This was a day that looking back on, I can not believe that I didn't see my intuitive ways then. 

There was five of us art students who went with our art teacher to the High Museum our senior year. Our goal was to pick one artist that we enjoyed and connected with and write a paper on that artist.

Here are the five of us from that day... Courtesy of Facebook.com

While going through the Museum, I found one artist that I fell in love with. No joke, even to this day I still have an "Art Crush" on this woman. Her name is Pamela Colman Smith.

Pamela Colman Smith

Her art showed something different than everyone else that day. 

Her art pieces was a mix of the surreal and visions from spirit. Looking back I can see that Pixie (her nickname) used art as a medium of getting those visions on paper. I completely and utterly connected with what they were saying.

There was an original deck that she made on display there. 

I did not spend as much time with the deck (at the time I was a full blown Catholic and Tarot represented in my mind at the time The Devil). They were beautiful and ~*very chatty*~. I remember being creeped out being around the deck. They had been used and loved and very chatty about the world. They were beautiful and hope I get another chance to the see them in the future. 

 

So when we were leaving I was in the gift shop. I wanted something by Pixie and all I could find was the Rider-Wade Deck. 

 

I took a leap of faith and bought the deck. I still have the deck. It is a reminder that the choices we make in life, even the small ones; Make a Difference.

 

I am humbled how Spirit gives me messages that I do not notice at the moment. 
However it sets into motion how we are merely players in this game of life. The best part is I'm ok with that ;)

 

 

Here is Natasha Bedingfeild's song Touch. The Lyric of the Bridge towards the end of the song sums up perfectly how I feel looking back on this experience in my life.

Every choice we make
And every road we take
Every interaction
Starts a chain reaction
We're both affected when we least expect it
And then when we touched
Then it all connected

Namaste Beautiful Essence, Till Next Time

~Lindsay

Finding Spirit in The Oddest Places

Hello Beautiful Essences!

This past weekend I got to go to last show of P!nk's "The Truth About Love" Tour. I went with three of my girlfriends and I wanted to post about having a spiritual experience while I was there.

When I was in middle school I was bullied a lot and did not have many friends. One of the things that got me through that time period was Pink's M!ssundaztood album.

Last saturday night I was standing there waiting for Pink to come out on that stage. I was excited to see one of my best friends excited to see her favorite artist. However something changed as soon as her she started singing.

It hit me like a ton of bricks. One of my connections to Spirit is through music. So there I was, at a pop-rock concert having a spiritual experience.

Here stood a woman that writes her songs from the heart. Not every song was a deep spiritual connection. But the songs that I connect with deeply has a profound effect on me.

I could close my eyes, sing as loud as I could without a care in the world. I swayed my hips to the music and pounded my foot to the ground. I got to shred tears working through my shadow work of that moment. That I am worthy. Very simple but profound realization that shook me to my core.

I am worthy. I am beautiful. I am me.

I do not have to be a certain way, and I do not have to hide anymore.

So beautiful essence my question to you is this: What makes you have a spiritual experience? And how often do you seek Spirit in all of your activites?

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Have you read some of her lyrics?
Here is some from her song "Dear Diary":

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets 

Cuz you're the only one that I know who'll keep them 

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets 

I know you'll keep them, and this is what I've done 

I learned my lessons 

I turned myself around 

I've got a guardian angel tattooed on my shoulder

She's been watching over me 

P!nk: Dear Diary Youtube Video

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Her song Sober brought tears to my eyes, it was truly inspiring. Here is a youtube video of Sober from this tour:
                                 

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Many Blessings,

Lindsay